Something is not right. I’m feeling anxious. Cranky. I think it is because I reached out to L again. I think of it as fun. But maybe it’s not that. Maybe it is more a form of self punishment. But I know – or should I say I am still learning – that I don’t need to or deserve to punish myself. I love myself. I deserve to love myself. It is my right. I send loving thoughts to dark places, negative situations, negative people. I send light. I forgive. I love. Love and gratitude are my guides.