Today’s feelings

Today was a bad day.  I got 3 hours of sleep, and my defenses were down.  I was victim to my emotions over things that weren’t quite bothering me as much yesterday.  I texted her.  She ignored most of them, but finally messaged me back that things are different and she won’t be talking to me all the time like she used to.

I finally cried.  I haven’t been able to actually cry over this.   It actually made me feel a little better.  The trigger was that I submitted an application for therapy and it came back as an automatic denial, and said this company wouldn’t be a good fit for the type of therapy I need, and referred me to the suicide hotline.  I stared at the number for awhile, and grabbed my phone, then I broke down in tears.  I need to get help.  I don’t have any friends to talk to.  She was my best friend.  I talked to her about everything.  And now I can’t talk to her about anything.  I feel like I want to die.

One thought on “Today’s feelings”

  1. Hey Devin, Ive followed your story and Im sorry for everything that youre going through with the break-up.. Heartbreak is hard but the pain will heal with time.. just hold on and take it day by day

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