Seriously back to stroke level stress. I’ll handle it though. 5 days alone in the house with A and J…I suspose I’ll handle it. But it’s insane.

Daddy o doesn’t have much to say these days. He talked to me off and on all day last Sun, makes me wonder if it was because i was with L.

Jealous no…envious yes…feel inferior…yes. Frustrates me …Yes. I some times feel angry and wonder why she’s so loveable and I’m not.

I’ll pull it all together. Including my emotions. I suspose, I should be used to, men acting like the worst thing that could ever happen, is having me care.

Do you think ill ever learn to make my heart hard? Or just stop wanting to be wanted? Rolls my eyes..I’m such a silly wench.









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