A lot of the problems in mine and Toby’s relationship come from me not telling him what’s going on in my life. And the reason I don’t do this is because it’s so unnatural for to just tell someone what’s on my mind.
At the moment I’m dealing with my mother’s rehab which I’m meant to be paying for but I have no job and no job prospects, I’m living with my boyfriend’s parents and my boyfriend’s not even here. It just feels like a whole lot of negative energy is around me all the time and despite the amazing friends I have I can’t rely on them all the time.
Today is the start of a new type of me, the type of person who tells Toby when something is bothering me or upsetting me.