Today has been just fucking horrible. I wake up in the middle of the night with a motherfucking migraine, was awake for about 2 hours because every time I was almost asleep a train went by and I live not even a block away for 3 train tracks!! So it was loud as hell!
I get woken up in the morning still having that fucking migraine, and got forced to walk over a mile in the sun and warmth. Which anyone who gets migraines understands all you wanna do is be left alone and sleep.
Then we get told that my sister who moved out isn’t gonna give us the money she owes so we dont have rent! But all is well because she got my mother and other sister cigarettes. We barely have any food in this house!
This is why I hate cigarettes and my oldest sister. And EVERYTHING.
I sometimes think I’m better off dead.
I want to go to sleep on night and that be the last of me.
I hate everything about myself when I look in the mirror.