My fiance and I both keep having the same dream that many people ‘ll over the world are having. A (what seems to be) prophetic dream of a great and powerful earthquake that leaves California in a state of disaster like nothing we have ever witnessed. It’s hard. Wakes you up, leaves you in a cold sweat…and the amount of water I see now in the dream. It’s freaky. Its even more of a reminder when we live on top of the San Andreas fault line!
I have been a writer almost my whole life as well as a dark digital artist, poet, dark photographer, have done several digital art projects with fetish models such as Dita Von Teese, Amanda Pemberton (aka Apnea) and small projects with various Lithium Picnic, Suicide Girls and God Girls. Just when I thought things were looking up, I was totally blind sided by a double whammy of a diagnosis. The same year I was doing all these side projects was the same year terrible internal pains were robbing me of my very mobility. The very hands I used to create these digital masterpieces were failing me, locking up on me and creating havoc for me. I was told then, in 2007 that I have Lupus (SLE) and SEVERE Rheumatoid Arthritis. That I'm one of about 15,000 patients in the world with this combo of illnesses. I'm brutally honest and write about everything and anything. I won't let fear hold me back and if it's controversial in theme or content, then so be it! People are usually sheep that bow down or give in to the white washed brainless masses way of thinking. Here, I'm going to PROMISE myself (and those who stumble upon my entries and read them) that I am going to write here totally unafraid. If it's liked, great. If not, find another journal LOL. It's that simple. My life is a strange ride 24/7 so get your seat belts fastened quickly. I can come off rather offensive about things so I warn right now, that if you happen to get all sensitive and hurt by what I may have to say here at any given time, then TOUGH! That's when you have one of two options. Cowgirl up OR Man up! I'm so not going to sugar coat what I will be documenting regarding my final days on Earth (however long that may or may not be). I'm not going to be afraid that another grown adult can't take it, so this is why I have to stress that if you are under 18yrs old I don't want you reading my stuff. So, that's about it.