Entry 8 – 10/28/15
16:50 – locked myself in my room, never getting out
I hate my life. I just can’t continue like this. I’m so tired of everything. My school, my work, my friends, people in my class, my image, my parents, my brother, my invisibility. Piano lessons. Climbing lessons. Language lessons. Going to sleep late because of work. Waking up early. My mum not understanding what I’m going through. So she keeps screaming at me and saying I don’t do anything. That I don’t respect her. But I do. The only reason why I don’t talk to her as much as before is because I’m going through a lot. I just don’t have the energy to talk. I go to school. Work. Get home. Activity. Work. Sleep late. I can’t do it anymore. I hate my life. I hate being angry with my mum. It’ the worst feeling. I just keep crying and crying and it never gets better. And then I can’t focus on anything else. I have loads of work to do. But right now, I just want to do something else. Like talk to my oldest brother. But I can’t. Because he’s not here. He found a way to get the hell out of here. I just want to do the same. I hate my life right now. Loads.