I still am dwelling on the conversation i had last night with my boyfriend. I don’t understands what his thoughts are about our future anymore. I asked his five year plan and he says i want to be happy. This makes me think he’s not serious about me and that I’m giving the milk for free as they say. I’m starting to stop caring about cleaning the host or making dinner or trying to be sexual in bed because i just don’t want to. I’m feeling unappreciated and unimportant and why would i continue to bend over backwards for someone who can’t do the same for myself. He tells me yesterday he needs to start truck shopping. Which i know he needs a new truck but in the back of my head that pushes marriage and kiss even farther out of the picture. I know he’s happy having a little house wife run around doing everything without a ring but I’m not. And I’m not happy with this arrangement.