I tried writing here once before but it didn’t work out. Here I am again trying to write something. I know I’ve made a lot of mistakes in my life. Mostly I made decisions that weren’t right for me. They weren’t to my advantage and I made them to please or help other people and of course I wound up getting screwed in the end. Now I have to live with all those things I did (and didn’t do) because I thought I was doing “the right thing”. I could have been selfish and uncaring like the people I thought I was helping and if I had been like them I wouldn’t have done all the boneheaded things I did and (maybe) I wouldn’t be in the rut I’m kind of in now. Things might not change that much from now on. Well, only time will tell. There are things I have to take care of whether others like it or not. I’ll get little help, a lot of criticism and probably wind up fucked but I have to try. In some ways I’ve wasted my life. It could have been worse but it also could have been much better. Who should I think of now?