It’s been three days

I wanna do the right thing so bad. I feel like I’m always trying to do so, but I end up fucking everything up and people will hate me for it.

I don’t sleep and I don’t eat. I haven’t for three days now. Every time I try to eat, it comes up again.

I’m so tired, I feel like I could stand up Straight and sleep the rest of my life away, but when I lay down, I can’t even keep my eyes closed for more than just a few seconds.

I wanna be in someones company so bad, when I’m alone. But when I’m with people,  everything inside me is screaming to be left alone.

I hate being like this. I hate these fucked up feelings.

One thought on “It’s been three days”

  1. You are not the only one who feels this way…there are so many options for groups that can help you with these feelings and help you figure out how to do do the next right thing. NA and AA are pretty common, but Celebrate Recovery is something new…it isn’t tied to drugs or alcohol but it offers some relief and guidance through life…I hope that you are able to find support somehow. I know that learning from other people makes all the difference in the world for me.

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