I was just sitting in my bedroom and thinking how messy my life was; too much to decide and to do in so little time. I dont know why people say that being a teenager is good all the time, we have to take big decions like we have to decide what we are going to do for the rest of our lives , but we dont even know what we want to wear. And it happens when we are still figuring out who we really are.
You are so lucky if you dont want to be a model, and if you want to have a nornal life. My dream was always to be a model and now I had the big opportunity of being an internation model, and it made me so happy cause it was my 15 birthday wish, and sad at the same time, because i would have to leave school for a while, and I dont know if im ready for this. Being a model was all i ever wanted but I also dont want to ”lose” my last year of high school! (and the prom and the big school trip) I see the teenager at parties and I wonder if they know how lucky they are for not having this responsability of decide this question, they just want to have fun and to have a normal teenager life with all his friends and go to parties. I want this, but I also want to be a model and I know that I cant have both. I’m only 16, isnt it too ealry for live and work in another country for my own? Will I have this opportunity ever again?I dont know where I can find the answer for the question ”should I stay or should I go?”