Not sure why I crave to just fill my life with chaos
Feeling pretty sexually depraved after my last encounter, I can’t believe I let him do all that to me
I can’t believe I enjoyed it. But now I feel so disgusted with myself, mostly for enjoying it so much
And then my detachment afterwards, he wanted to cuddle and hold my hand but I felt uncomfortable with that. I’ll let him fuck me and slap my face while calling me a bitch but I won’t let him hold my hand.
I don’t want to kiss him goodbye and I don’t want to hug him.
I want to leave and go smoke a joint and drink a coffee. I was recently told that it was very weird for a chick to be like that. I don’t know I kind of see it like this: we’re only here to fuck, I’m not your mother, don’t ask me to hold your hand
So I guess that makes me cold hearted or mean. Kinda always been like that though.
Whatever I don’t know what else to say