I am not sure what “the plan” is… I just know that some days I do want to just throw in the towel and have drink or smoke one bowl. It is not at all a healthy solution. It’s what that scared little girl inside knows. It is a hiding spot from all of her responsibilities.
I cannot send her back to that hell. She sees it as her hiding spot,but it is not a safe place to be.
I want to be close you. I want to feel you touch my face and run your fingers through my hair.