Everything is getting harder. Nothing is helping. It’s getting worse every day. I want it to stop. I want to get better. I want to have my family back. Somebody give me a time machine. Music is the closest thing I have to a time machine right now. Just make it all better. I can’t talk to my councilor. She’ll make it worse. I can’t talk to anyone. I don’t want to. I just want to sleep forever and stay in the dream world where my aunt is. Stay there forever. I been fighting with myself and I don’t think I’m winning anymore. I know I’m waiting for something but I don’t know what. All I know is that it isn’t getting here fast enough. I feel alone and empty. I can’t sleep at night, I been feeling sick, I cry uncontrollably, I become a ghost within myself, I wait for someone to make it better and they never do. Nobody can ever help me. I want to feel alive again. I want to feel happy again. I want to be normal again.
I'm a 17 year old girl from Lutcher Louisiana. I'm not the smartest person alive. I laugh, cry, smile, and scream. I've been through a lot in life but it's only made me stronger every time. Most people think I'm weird but I just speak my mind.