I’ve been thinking during the day. Dreaming during the night. Looking for clues to an answer that can give me advice. I daydream of relationships that I do not have. I visualize personal tragedies that will not happen. I ignore what I should be aware of. I hesitate to make the first move towards anyone. I give into temptations that I know I should resist. I tell myself that I know what this cycle is. However, I hear the cycle tell me what I am.