I don’t know how I am right now. If someone was to ask me at this moment in time, I would respond “I really don’t know”, and that’s the truth.
Take last night for example, I remember waltzing around my living room with the two of them, laughing in extreme volumes. Then the next thing I know I’m out and everything feels wrong, like I’m being continuously attacked but I’m not sure if it’s just my mind and I overreact. The tears fall and all I can say is that I received bad news, although I’m not even sure.