It seems cruel that complication is easy to laze about and into and the simple solutions are difficult to choose. Life feels complicated. I’m ready to let you go. It is a simple decision. Another disappointment stacked on top of unfinished conversations. You used the word ‘commitment’ – I appreciated how you made a commitment to yourself and to me. It saddens me to find you are unable to hold a commitment to yourself. In conclusion, I can’t believe you can commit to me either. And that is ok. This is an act of self care. It isn’t easy. But it is simple.
Once I said my head was exploding and my heart was breaking and that I needed time. You said you felt like we were still walking together. It was a comforting sentiment. Today I take the first step on a new path for me. I’m taking it alone with uncertainty, but a willingness to try something new for myself to make space for the intimacy and relationship for me.
I’m sorry you aren’t here with me. I wish you were, but it is ok that we choose separate paths. I have faith I’ll see you again – either at an intersection or through the woods somewhere along the way. I always wish you sure and steady footing and may you find what you seek.
With all the love in my heart.