So I hear I am, writing my inner thoughts and feelings for anyone to read on this crazy internet world.
I need to write, I need to vent, but I don’t want to do that on paper. I am scared some one will find it but I am more enticed by the idea of people reading this. People who don’t know me. Knowing someone will read this makes it seem more theraputic for me.
So here is a little bit about me. I live in Melbourne but I not from there. I moved down here with my ex boyfriend and since then I have had a rough few years. We broke up, I have struggled my way through study.. Struggled meaning, failed. Failed because I was so distracted by my loneliness and heart break.
It has been over a year since we broke up and we still have strong ties to each other. Its toxic, even though I tell myself it isn’t.
I have been in a bad way in terms of money as well. I started dancing at a gentlemans club. At first I thought my life had hit a low point, now I actually enjoy it and have met the most beautiful women. The stigma with stripping is there for a reason but fortunately I work some where a little more “classy” and the management is strict and big on our health and safety.
Obviously I will go into it more. But for now I wanted to give you a little background information.
I want this space to be an outlet for my thoughts on my job, my study and my ex. These are the things i find it hard to talk about in the real world.