My best friend left to travel with a fair for 8 months, leaving me to take care of their life while they were gone. I went from seeing them 4 or 5 times a week to only speaking maybe once a month. They had enough time to post on Facebook but not enough thought to message or call me. I’m hurt. They just got back home and now I don’t think I want to see them anymore. I no longer know how to act. I’m far too cautious and I felt hurt and abandoned by their absence in my life. I don’t know what to do anymore. Even seeing them I just wanted them to go away again so I don’t get too close and hurt when they leave again in a few months. I spent 14 years with this person and now I’m afraid to be near them. I don’t have many friends and have trust issues. I’m told by others that I’m being selfish and just need to get over it but I don’t know how. I don’t know if I should. I feel even more alone and lost now that they are back than I did when they left. I know they didn’t leave to be hurtful to me but that’s how I took it…. I don’t know what to do anymore.