This is me writing here for the 1st time, just hope I’ll be able to stick to that. Today I would like to tell you about my emotions.
Overall I had a few really huges crushes and I felt butterflies in my stomach back then, but now, I just feel like I’m complete unable of any emotions.. I’ve had my 1st boyfriend for a month this year. Cute & nice but we got like almost nothing in common and I guess I never actually felt in love while being with him even though I cried af even in public while leaving for school for the 1st time bc of him. But I think I just thought I loved him, but he was just a crush and nothing more. I just wish him the best and I’m sure he’s better of without me I was a horrible girlfriend after all :D. I think we weren’t just meant to be get over the distance between us bc we weren’t in love anyway..
Once I asked a very nice older woman I know since childhood that how do I know who’s the “one”, and she just told me that when you meet him/her you just know it. 🙂 I think I’ll stick to that, but I still feel very emotionless.. All I do is think about my memories how I used to be very excited about some things and I remember feeling genuinelly happy. I want that again…