Hello, Internet World.
Quite a few years have passed since I’ve been truly involved in your circle. I can’t say that I missed you, but, here I am, so maybe I really did, deep, deep down.
My life is good right now. Extremely so. I’m blessed with a beautiful, eternal family whom I love and adore. I’m healthy and capable. I’m blessed with the means to comfortably provide for our family, even if we’re not wealthy by the world’s standards.
So, why am I here, you might be asking yourself?
Or maybe you don’t really care, but I’m going to answer anyways.
With all of my happiness, deep inside I’m filled with anger, sadness, and hopelessness. All of these emotions were born on the happiest day of my life.
I can pretend from day to day that I’m just peachy and completely put together; but, from time to time, I break, and the dark thoughts just flood into my cheery life. I can see them hurting my family, painfully showing them who I truly am. But, I can’t help it!
It takes a couple of days, but eventually I’m able to plug the holes in my personality and gradually get things back to normal…for them.
And for me, too, I guess.
So, in an effort to take control of any future cracks, I’ve come here to release these ugly thoughts I’m struggling to contain inside.
Now, I promise that all of my entries won’t be dark and gloomy and “Oh, woe is me” garbage; but, I’m going to write what is truly on my mind and I hope that you’ll take my words for what they are and, if you feel so inclined, provide me the unbiased feedback, positive or negative, that I’m looking for from you internet strangers.
Thank you, in advance, for your attention. I look forward to…well… whatever is to come of this.
Write to you all soon.