Okay I just wanted other opinions when I met my boyfriend it was love at first sight and yes alot of people don’t believe in that but I didn’t until it happened to me.. Yes things are hard because of my issues but it doesn’t make me love him less I just have those insecurities that he will find someone else but I need to believe in god and in us that it wwouldn’t happen. And i honestly believe my grandma from heaven sent him to me. My grandma passed two years ago on stomach cancer we always had a connection and two years and 1 month before she got it I had a dream that she died and a year later she did. I still feel this hole in my heart and yes she’s around me I just miss her so so much. I love you grandma your always in my thoughts and my heart just as my kids and Robbie is also.