Christmas Day is so near. I can feel the essence of it, but not the weather. The temperature is too hot – just like summer. Also, my cousin’s 18th birthday is getting near too. I still don’t have a dress to wear but I’m gonna buy some other time. You see, in this world, people want something attractive. I mean, who would buy ugly things?
Now this is the part I hate the most: feeling ignored for not being a pretty human being on my cousin’s party. I can’t blame these kind of people, because just like what I said, who would want ugly things? I can imagine the day of the party – walking with my pretty cousins and sister, formally introducing ourselves to our relatives, with a smile on our faces with our big bright eyes. Then the relatives would compliment how we look good and all, but not me. Because I know their eyes would not meet mine, so it means being left out among my cousins and sister for not having a pretty face. And I know how I would feel – hurt. People think being rejected is more painful, then, they all thought wrong because being ignored is the worse. I always say sorry to myself for why I look different among my brother and sister. I once pinched my face and pulled my hair so tight because I was frustrated with how I look. I don’t hate them because of their judgements, I hate them because they’re ignoring people like me.
So I’m really searching for a beautiful dress to wear on the party to fit in, in case my imagination will happen. Lol. It’s just sad that I need to fit in even if I wanted to be special. The lesson here is: to not judge the book by its cover because the content is more beautiful than any other attractive things we see.