Good Bye 2015

This year started out like every other year.  Actually on New Year 2015 I couldn’t of been happier.  I was with my favorite person in the world.  As time went on we had a lot of deaths in the family, a few major surgeries, and a lot of adjustments.  In the span of 2 months from June – July I stopped talking to the 2 closest people in my life.  Now I watch someone treating someone else with ease the way I use to kick and scratched to be treated.  I as the year closes I have felt like I am drowning and I have to fight for every breath to take.  I keep telling myself just take one step and the other foot will follow.  With all the adjustments and different turns in my life I have decided it is time I changes.  I have been working on it and doing pretty good with just a few hiccups but it is more than I ever have tried to do.  2016 is going to be the year of me, myself, and I.  I am tired of being hurt by others and I am tired of feeling like a victim all the time.  I am not a victim . I am strong, determined,and a fighter.  I will become who I want to be which will make everything else follow. As for the people I lost in my life. I wish you well.  It is better for me to move on.  As I say good-bye to 2015 I bid you a farewell.  I will find others to replace the void y’all use to fill but you aren’t going to be able to replace me.  I was the best thing that happened to either one of you.  I am sorry neither of y’all saw it.  My sister, who I spent my whole life with, may you find a family that is more supportive to you than you feel this one has been.  My best friend, who I have loved for 25 years, may the one you found to love be able to grow with you.  

One thought on “Good Bye 2015”

  1. Thank you Autumn, I have always told myself about making changes during the new year but this year feels so different. I have a different determination. I am glad to see there are other people out there with the same goals of embracing change. I don’t feel so alone. I am a child of God and I plan of finding myself through him this year. He never lost me but I seem to of turned my back on him. I am ready and have the will. Happy New Year to you.

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