Well today started off by getting woken up by a bad dream. I don’t know what happened, all I do know is that it scared the living shit out of me! I’ve started eating healthier so I had an omelette for my breakfast and then watched Madagascar 2, then the day went downhill from there! The bitch washed my nuggie!!! SHE WASHED MY NUGGIE! How was I supposed to cope with a washed nuggie! I know this probably sounds gross but I liked how it smelt, how it felt! It was my own comfort blanket! My nuggie no one ever shares my nuggie with me never mind washes it! Iv had to cope all day without it! I’ve felt insecure and down because I’ve had no nuggie!!!! It’s just not the same! I made my tea, even though I didn’t feel like eating ! Made feel sick after I ate it! But then I had a full binge eating session after! I’m lying here right now wanting to be sick wanting to go and force all of that stuff back up, but I can’t ! I’ve got to stay strong for that one special lady! I’m gonna try not to hurt her anymore with me being the way I am! I’m gonna try and stay strong. I’m gonna show her that I’m doing this for us! For me and her!!!