Everyone has their own personal issues. Some have mental, others have physical, family problems, something about their lives that they are not happy with. . And one day you realize that you have to change things about yourself first… to make changes for the better later.
Some time ago, I decided to make a change in my life. For a long while I was down on myself, feeling depressed, having anxiety, etc. Sadly, I didn’t even recognize it at the time. I kept pushing through daily with everything I had in me. I dealt with whatever was thrown my way and just tried again the next day. Life in general, my personal life, so much shit was screwed up. I couldn’t ever “catch my breath” so to speak, turning things around. I hated myself all the time because I couldn’t just “fix it”. I just wanted things to stop for a minute. And surely, they did…
It’s known by now I battled with a drinking problem. I’m surely not proud of it. But I’m also not ashamed of it. I use it now as a tool to inspire others. And by helping others, it helps me. I go to daily meetings, I learn more and embrace the “gift” that has been given to me.. Which is sobriety.
As ironic, or as weird as it may sound, the thing that brought out the “worst” in me, has turned out to be what brings out the “best” in me. .. And by that I mean, this whole saga has taught me who I actually am. And who I want to be. I can’t change who I use to be, But I can surely help others with their problems, by sharing my past issues.
The answer was right in front of me the whole time.. Why I went through all the experiences I have encountered throughout my life. The “man upstairs” was testing me and showing me my purpose. It wasn’t until today I realized it. I was put on earth to help others. Inspire the ones who need help. This is the job that I want in my life. This is the career that makes the most sense for me, because I know a shitload about it. Helping those now already who need it is the most gratifying feeling.
I have learned to love myself. A feeling I haven’t had in for as long as I can remember. Who I am today, is what I want to remembered for. Because the ones I love and care about, and especially myself, deserve to see who I am, who I have turned into, and get to view my potential and all of the greatness I can finally offer. Prove my self worth, all of the good in me, and everything else will work out the way they are suppose to. Always have faith, and keep hope. You wake up and finally “get it”.
“Success is not a place at which one arrives, but rather the spirit with which one undertakes and continues the journey”