So here i am still fighting with my fears and insecurities. I don’t want them to get the best of me because i don’t want to ruin anything that i have now. It’s hard to manage a relationship when you never been in one and even harder when you don’t trust yourself. At first it was easy but there are little things that are coming up. I just have to remind myself than being in love doesn’t mean that everything is fine and perfect, there’s gonna be lot of difficult moments but love itself is here to make us go through all of this together. Yesterday i found a post on Pinterest and that was all i needed to get me back on the track. It’s a piece of words that i will need to keep near me and read from time to time because these are the small things that we tend to forget and these are the small things that can keep a relationship stronger. It’s about 6 phrases that are more important than ‘i love you’ and one of them is ‘i forgive you’.
So here it goes: i forgive you for all the things you have done, or will do, that may hurt me. I forgive the way you may lash out when you are hungry, i forgive the things you may say when you’re tired after a long day. i forgive the times you didn’t even know you upset me. I forgive your big mistakes and the small ones. I forgive you for not knowing what i needed when i though you would, or even expected you to know. I forgive you when you fall short, because i see how hard you are trying. I forgive you the way i hope you’ll forgive me because i know neither of us are perfect.
So here i am now forgiving you for every little things that you said or did that hurt me. There aren’t much of them and i have to admit that you bring more happiness in my life than anything else but sometimes when my insecurities come back even the smallest things can hurt me. I hope that you forgive me too because i know that im not perfect and sometimes i make mistakes but im still learning. I still learning to love and to let myself be loved so i thank you for being patient with me. I thank you for bearing with me and for taking care of me. I thank you for being so loving and respectful toward me. I thank you for everything that you do to make happy and im grateful that i have someone like you in my life 🙂