Here it comes again, this boring problem won’t go away. My family life isn’t happy as it should be, I feel like I’m so alone and insecure, nobody’s gonna understand how I deeply feel inside, yes, I have mom and dad but we rarely spend time together. I know that I’m more lucky than the others, at least I still have mom and dad right here, but why I feel like dad doesn’t exist any longer. I don’t even know where the problem is, and why my dad act so cold to me and my mom, and it’s torturing me everytime I look at him and try to recognize how the awesome dad he used to be, but now the good memory of him is fading away slowly.. I sincerely love my dad and I care about him very much, I try to make him satisfied and proud of me, but it seems like it doesn’t work. I have no siblings, so I have to take and handle with it alone, when I feel like I can’t take it any more, I cry quietly in the room, don’t wanna let my mom knows that I’m so weak, and I don’t wanna make her sad, she’s been fighting for me for her entire life, for me she’s like a gift from somewhere.
I’m actually a very cheerful and fun person, but they will not know that sometimes my life isn’t full of joy and happiness as they think. I just hope that this problem will mean nothing to me eventually, I have to be stronger, take it positively and better pay attention to what makes my life get better. I hope..