for the last three weeks i have been on a ten day negativity fast. the objective is to go ten days without having a negative thought. if you should have a negative thought you are to correct your thinking, replace it with a positive thought, and start over at day one. i’m not doing well with this challenge.
first off, it’s winter. i live in ohio where it snows. i hate snow. i hate the sight of snow, i hate walking through snow, and i hate hearing forecasts of more snow. i see nothing positive about snow.
second, my back hurts. my spinal and hip issues make it difficult to walk, or, walk in snow. its painful to sit, stand, lie down, and sometimes just move. i can’t be positive while i’m in pain.
third, i’m not experiencing the mood elevation i’d hoped for from the meds i started three months ago. if anything, i’m just as low energy, unmotivated, experiencing feelings of hopelessness and dread as i did before i started them. and that has me worried about my mental health and my future.
so, right now is probably not the best time for me to remain absolutely positive for ten consecutive days. but, i have learned how to monitor my thoughs, stop them before i enter worse case senario territory, and counter my negative thoughs with positive thoughs.