Home Does Not Feel Like Home

    When I leave my house, I am always meeting up with great friends who constantly talk about how great I am and how much they love talking to me cause I give this vibe of always ‘being there’ for them… But the problem I have is with when I get back home.

    When I am home, I am constantly reminded that I am fat (even though I work out and I’m losing weight). When I am home, I am constantly reminded that I am a failure for not having a job till now (even though I really am looking in many fields, and not just my major related). When I am home, I am constantly reminded of how lonely I am for not having a husband (I’m only 23…). When I am home, I am not amazing. I suck. I’m not good enough…

    When I am home, I only keep wishing that I wasn’t. Home does not feel like home… at all. A home is where you are accepted for your imperfections that you dont have to show the world outside… so why am I always feeling insecure when I am only at home? 

Home does not feel like home…

     

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