So today is the first day I am fighting my opiate withdrawls without the help of meth to keep my mind occupied. Its by far the worst day so far, I am dreading the thought of not sleeping, I feel so drained but I am completely restless at the same time. I slept for probally 8 hours yesterday, crashing around 12 cause i was up for 3 straight days, waking up around 4am til 8am tossing and turning then thankfully falling back alseep til about noon.
Im sitting here dreading the next couple days, if I can manage a way to score like 30$ i will be able to get a bit more meth to fade away these withdrawls. I hope I can make it and not just go through all of this for nothing cause this is truly a nightmare that I wouldnt wish upon anyone else.
The mental anguish of just constantly thinking about how bad I want to do a shot and I cant. For now Im going to try to occupy my mind with music and watch netflix but that doesnt really draw my attention span away from what im going through as much as i need it to.