All this time I thought I had lost myself. But that was just the process, now I’ve really lost myself. Don’t even know who I am anymore. People telling me “I’m so glad your old self is back haven’t seen you this happy in so, so long….” I’m not back in fact it’s worse then ever now but you didn’t seem to care when I showed it. I can’t even cry anymore, I speak a lot more and smile too. Mother says “You see there was nothing wrong with you.”
I’m so afraid of living like this.