I read a comment that was made by someone on my last diary entry, and that person said something like I do need to be loved, but I have to be loved by myself first. This comment is so perfect, because not one bit of me disagrees at all. I do need to love myself.
Valentines day (or single awareness day) is coming up, which means its a perfect time to start by learning how to love and appreciate myself more. The thing is, for a long time, I kept telling myself that yeah I do love myself, I love who I am and all that… but I still kept being sad. Apparently, I didn’t believe my own words.
In this moment, I am ready to learn how to love myself. Maybe I don’t know how, and could use some suggestions, but I am ready. I want to prove to myself that I do need to be loved by me, and mostly me. So I think this valentines day, I will go pamper myself by putting on beautiful makeup, and go do my nails in fancy shmancy place… cause I deserve some pampering! I’ll also go have my favorite food (with any single friends I have left, haha) and maybe watch an action/horror movie!
It’s a long journey to learn how to love myself, but I am already packed and I’m on my way there. The promise I made, which is to go pamper myself on valentines, is something I will do for sure. If I have any extra cash, I’ll buy something for my dear mum as well… but first, selfish me needs my love.