Growing up

Do you want to know the biggest problem with me? I try to grow up too fast. A 15 year old told me that I need to stop trying to grow up so fast. She didn’t really mean that in a good way either.

I don’t know why I feel like I want to grow up. It’s not that I’m forcing myself to be like an adult, it’s just who I am. My mind is complex so I ask hard questions and I’m serious when I feel is right. I don’t know how to stop growing up so fast. I feel that if I act childish then when the time comes for me to be a true adult it will be too late. I don’t want to go into life acting like a child. I want to be the mature guy that I know I am.

I don’t understand why people get upset with the fact that I’m acting older my age. I don’t find it a bad thing. It just shows that I know that it’s time to start being mature. I’m fairly mature for my age. Of course I still have my childish moments when I’m with my friends but for the most part I’m fairly mature. I think that maybe everybody wants me to experience my teenage years before life hits me. But what should I experience that an adult can’t? What if I want to be an adult? I simply do not want to be considered a child and older people know I’m not a child nor do I act like it.

Is being a teenager so much different from being an adult? Like of course we don’t have all the bills and everything; but what about all the stress teenagers and adults have? I can without a doubt say that I’m stressed. School and studies have absolutely drained me and I’m trying not to fall behind and that’s making me lose sleep. I need sleep. I reallllly need sleep. I would take a nap during the afternoon but sadly I have homework.

One thought on “Growing up”

  1. You pose a great question here & from having read your past blogs I can definitely see how mature you are (and I mean that as a true compliment). If you are happy with your life as it is now and the person that you are, why should you pretend to be some one that you aren’t.

    When people (grown ups) say “slow down” and “enjoy your youth” it’s typically because they wish they could be young again and without the adult responsibilities… they have a longing for certain stigmas of youth culture (parties, not paying as many bills, etc.) When a peer says it, I think it’s because they can’t relate to your mind set or you make them look bad (and I really hope that’s not the case, them being jealous of your success I mean).

    My oldest daughter (14 years old) is extremely mature for her age. She wants a good life and is paving a strong foundation for herself. Some days I wish she’d slow down, enjoy herself now… but then she has days where I’ll catch her watching a beloved movie from when she was little or she’ll have a fit over a bad hair cut and I am reminded of her true age.

    Don’t worry about what others think. You do what’s right for you. So many people look on teenagers with disdain and it’s a shame. In my opinion if your peers followed your shining example, I know your futures will all be bright.

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