Do you want to know the biggest problem with me? I try to grow up too fast. A 15 year old told me that I need to stop trying to grow up so fast. She didn’t really mean that in a good way either.
I don’t know why I feel like I want to grow up. It’s not that I’m forcing myself to be like an adult, it’s just who I am. My mind is complex so I ask hard questions and I’m serious when I feel is right. I don’t know how to stop growing up so fast. I feel that if I act childish then when the time comes for me to be a true adult it will be too late. I don’t want to go into life acting like a child. I want to be the mature guy that I know I am.
I don’t understand why people get upset with the fact that I’m acting older my age. I don’t find it a bad thing. It just shows that I know that it’s time to start being mature. I’m fairly mature for my age. Of course I still have my childish moments when I’m with my friends but for the most part I’m fairly mature. I think that maybe everybody wants me to experience my teenage years before life hits me. But what should I experience that an adult can’t? What if I want to be an adult? I simply do not want to be considered a child and older people know I’m not a child nor do I act like it.
Is being a teenager so much different from being an adult? Like of course we don’t have all the bills and everything; but what about all the stress teenagers and adults have? I can without a doubt say that I’m stressed. School and studies have absolutely drained me and I’m trying not to fall behind and that’s making me lose sleep. I need sleep. I reallllly need sleep. I would take a nap during the afternoon but sadly I have homework.