Regret

My life would’ve been more better if I didn’t let myself fall for you. I knew something devastating would eventually happen. But I couldn’t resist craving love from someone. How come people act so nice in the first place then afterward, get bored then cast aside from you. Isn’t that unfair at all? Well… I can’t judge them for what they want. It’s their decision and perhaps, It’s none of my business. I don’t understand people nowadays. One day, they’re your everything and the next we aren’t even worth a text back. They make us feel wanted one minute and irrelevant the next. I just don’t get it tho. What do these people actually want?

I remember those days were you used to call me for like hours, but now, I can’t even rememeber your voice. Our voices sound different now.. It’s static in our vocal chords, muffled sounds caused by our current state of chaos. I keep telling myself that perhaps maybe, maybe, you’re never coming back. And I guess that’s the most terrifying thing I’ll ever think of every night.

I never thought you’d give up on me. Where did I fucking go wrong? I did everything for you. Well I guess because it’s because I was the second choice. Cool. You took my heart and played  with it until it shattered into a million pieces. So that probably means.. you must have really loved me?

Million of people say that the truth shall set you free, but I didn’t expect that saying ‘I love you’ would let you let go of me. I was just being honest. Am I too naive to wish for someone who’d instead tell me in the first place to never fall in love with them in lieu of keeping my hopes up? </3

 

One thought on “Regret”

  1. I am so sorry to hear of your tragic end to love. The guy was a jerk. You deserve better, as you know. And something better is waiting for you. Ask God to guide you and to help you heal from this hurt. Again, I am so sorry for your pain.

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