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Feb. 19, 2016 – Step by Step

Step by Step

Friday, Feb. 19, 2016
Today, begin the process of reconciling emotional, spiritual and mental defects to the program – even if I am not either willing or able yet to hand them off to my higher power. Reconciliation, needed so I see that I must let go of what holds me back, requires that I understand that recovery is more than not drinking and requires a fundamental change in my entire character. And abstinence alone, were it that easy, cannot achieve that change. It requires a brutally honest Fourth to find my defects and a 10th to understand why and how they impede what I could be in sobriety – but am not yet. In reconciling myself to my defects of character, I may finally be able to say they have no purpose in where I hope to go in recovery, that they harbor a hidden spark to ignite a slip or relapse and, more important, that I want to be done with them once and for all. If the defects I found in the Fourth remain in my 10th and I know it is time to let them go, today, I seek the courage to change what I can – myself. And our common journey continues. Step by step. – Chris M., 2016

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