I wish you understood that it is you, you have to protect. It is your soul, your feelings and your essence. At the end of the day, no one will do it for you. Sadly, you fail to see how important it is for you to build yourself up in loneliness. Learn that you need to discover yourself before discovering somebody else. If you do not, that person won’t be able to discover you as you might wish because not even you will be able to explain your essence. It self-love. It is self- care and self-empowerment. It is feeling good with ones decisions to be happy. It is choosing to be happy, regardless of what people can say. Learn that the people around you cannot determine your present or your future. They really have no say in what you are or what you do. At the end of the day, it is all about what you decide. I just wish you the best of luck and strength for what you desire.