I have a tension neck ache. I really dislike when this happens. I also dislike when I breathe shallowly. They go hand in hand. I think I need some yoga. I was taking a yoga class on Sunday mornings but I have let other things take priority over it. I am currently training for a 1/2 marathon on 4/3. It’s going fairly well. I ran 10 miles on Sunday. I was really tired Sunday night but Monday I was fine. Ran again on Tuesday. Good run. Off today. I am eating well because of WW, but I still eat emotionally. It’s always when I get home from work. I’m with the kids. I’m not focused on any one thing. I’m thinking about them, their homework, dinner that needs to be prepared and kids fed, activities, S’s constant need to have friends around, his constant need for activity, laundry, my desk that is piled up, the dirty kitchen floor. It all seems to come at me when I walk in the door of my house. And to escape the madness all I want to do is fill my mouth. Funny how just writing this down is helping the tension I am feeling right now. I may still take 1/2 a hydrocodone. I take it occasionally as an aid in relaxation. I have no dependency on it. I just use it when I need it. I sometimes think pot would be nice. But I wasn’t a fan of it in college and I’m not sure I would be now. Plus it’s not as convenient as hydrocodone, which I get legally. I should get back to work now.
D is having a stressful week. She came down stairs this morning saying “something doesn’t feel right”. This is a sign she is stressed and she can’t figure out what is bothering her. She lost 2 homework assignments and her glasses. We talked with her about the homework. She has a plan for salvaging some credit for the missing assignments. A little later she told me it was the glasses she was upset about (H doesn’t know about them yet). She usually figures it out when I gently prompt her. I said I would check at the Y for her. She was there on Friday night with some friends. I really hope they are there.
H is having a fairly good week. His concentration on school work is somewhat improved with his meds. His behavior between subjects is still an issue.
Love those kids beyond all measure!!! The light of my life!
Ok I’ll work now.