I haven’t written any entry for 3 days.. because last Wednesday I don’t feel like writing anything, the following day I suffered from a terrible toothache up to the point that I was crying because it really hurts but thanks to the medicine.. I should have it removed but I can’t yet coz it still hurts a bit.. and yesterday I was reviewing for exams..
I decided to write an entry today because of two reasons.. first is because it’s been three days since my last entry and second is because i had a horrible experience and i can’t get it out of my head..
So.. after our exams.. we decided to go to the mall.. it was 5 of us.. we went to the quantum.. then wof.. we always do that after exams or whenever we don’t have classes in the afternoon.. we were having lots of fun.. we decided to roam around for a while before we go home.. it was only past 2pm.. we stopped by at a dvd store… when we heard a very loud thud.. so we looked to where it came from.. and we saw a man lying on the floor.. we were shocked.. at first we thought he collapsed but then we realized that he jumped off from the 3rd floor.. I was nearly crying.. I was nauseous and I felt dizzy seeing that.. there were a few policemen and security guard in the area and they responded quickly.. they covered the man and we saw someone tried to revive him.. a lot of questions came to us.. we were walking finding a bench to sit and process everything we saw.. it all happened so fast but it comes back to my mind in slow motion.. I still remember everything..
I heard it from the news earlier.. they said that last Tuesday night.. he also attempted to commit suicide.. but the guards were able to stop him.. the reason why he committed suicide is because of a woman.. and because he doesn’t have any more money.. and he have debt in every hotel that he stayed in.. he was a foreign national.. if I remembered it correctly he was German..
I never expected that I would witness something like that.. how we wish we didn’t saw that.. but we can’t undo it..
I still have exams tomorrow so I did this so early coz I have to review.. I wish I could..
Today was supposed to be just fun.. but we happened to witness something horrible.. it will always be a part of our memory now..
I really can’t think of taking my life.. coz in the first place i don’t own it.. I really don’t think of suicide as a solution.. it was the worst thing I ever witnessed..