People have been telling me that I’m not alone, and that I should enjoy life.

Don’t get me wrong, I really appreciate it, and I’m very grateful to those that are trying to help me.

But how can I? How can I enjoy when everywhere I look, I see bad things? My parents said that I have always been too positive, and that’s the reason why I’ve been disappointed many times. But I feel like I’m getting too negative now. Why can’t I find an ‘inbetween’?

2 thoughts on “Inbetween.”

  1. Ah baby finding that balance is damn hard isn’t it? And the truth is there is a lot of bad out there and life is hard however I truly believe it’s worth the ride! I do, I do. Prepare for the worst, hope for the best. And no matter what people say look for the good in other folks. And when they let you down (as everybody will we are human shrug it off and go on) If they are mean enough say to yourself fuck you and the horse you rode in on and go do something for yourself! YOU ARE WORTH IT.

  2. I don’t know. I think everyone spends their lives searching for a balance between what they need and want and what’s good for them. Maybe it makes you feel better or worse to have a label for it. Someone very close to me recently realized she has borderline personality disorder. For me, I wouldn’t be more comfortable having a label for my feelings. But for her, it makes her feel like she has a grip on the situation. That there are people who work the same way and they can advise her on how to deal with it. Maybe there is some particular reason you can’t find balance. Maybe you need to find your own way of coping with who/what you are. We all do. Maybe it’s just where you are in your life right now. Whatever it is, you can handle it.

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