We’re friends. F-R-I-E-N-D. I cant cross the line because it will ruin everything. Every night turns into a battlefield.
I cant sleep because it feels like my heart would explode. If I tell him the truth, I cant bear to lose him especially when he’ll ignore me for the rest of my life.
I wont gamble the laughs we make, the funny insults, the way we build our own world and the physical and emotional comfort we have. I think of all his flaws so I can hate him and pull my affection before it’s too late but it leads me to liking him more. I tried everything to prevent myself from falling. I tried not to miss him when he’s not around but I get sad when he’s not in my sight.
I cant tell him how I feel, I really can’t.