I can’t stop feeling down these days. It’s been a bad year. Everything just seems to go wrong. Our heating broke several times which resorted in us having to replace the boiler. Then our shower broke so we had to have the whole thing replaced with a mixer fitting. I found out I was pregnant only to then miscarry at 10 weeks. My company is being taken over so I might lose my job. I’m finding it hard to stay positive.
I try to talk to people but there never really seems to be anybody truely there to listen. Even though there are people around I don’t feel a connection. I am severed from them. There’s people who don’t seem to actually care what’s going on. Or those who pretend to care or those who just turn around and make everything about them. I’m already seeing a councillor. But that’s only one small hour a month. Sometimes it feels like enough. Other times its no where near enough. I wish I could find some way to stop feeling so lonely.