03/14/2016 – I spent the weekend with two of the most important people in my life. I have been very fortunate to have landed myself in the most perfect poly relationship that I could have ever imagined. I guess that I am a unicorn, for whatever that means. I can label my relationship with Sean fairly easily. He is my Dom, Lover, Boyfriend, Friend, Confidant, Protector, and my pillar of strength. I need him as much as I need my next breath. I can’t imagine not having him in my life and am so thankful every day that he allows me in his.
Sean is the man that I have always dreamt about but never believing that someone like him could exist. He is dominant and loving, strict but caring, a pillar of strength, but also someone who doesn’t hide his feelings. A man who would encourage me to be all that I can be and explore my boundaries but would also keep me on a tight rein watching over me all the time, allowing me to learn from my mistakes but not to get hurt. That is Sean, and I am so fortunate to have found him. I am working on not worrying each day that my dream will come to an end. It is my biggest fear.
My relationship with his wife that is more difficult to define. Sean’s wife Fawn and I have a very special friendship. Fawn is so much more than a best friend to me. We are kindred spirits, so much alike but also different in some ways too. Together though, we can be a handful. I love her sense of adventure and mischief. She always has a great can-do attitude and is so very loving. If I have ever met someone who deserves to have the world at her feet, it is Fawn. I don’t think that she has a selfish bone in her body. She is a wonderful wife, girlfriend and submissive. My heart aches when she isn’t treated with respect and kindness from others. They don’t realize how wonderful she is and how blessed they are to have her in their lives. Not only is she beautiful inside, she is also on the outside. I have never met someone so photogenic and beautiful as she is.
We both love exhibitionism, and I have had the opportunity to explore that side of me with her. I’ve never felt the need or desire to play with another woman before and still don’t with the exception of Fawn. Playing with her seems so natural and organic. We both feel most comfortable playing with an audience, and don’t play alone. I enjoy bringing Fawn pleasure and happiness when we play. It’s like an extension of my love. She is also so very good at giving me pleasure too J Fawn is an amazing woman and I am envious of her sexuality. She can orgasm and squirt more than I thought was humanly possible! Fawn is also so comfortable with her body and knowing what pleasures her. I don’t see her getting caught up in her head like I do.
Fawn also has helped me work on my insecurities about Sean’s other girlfriend. On the night that Sean is with her, I spend the night with Fawn. This night allows me not only to grow my friendship with her but has also enabled Fawn to spend time with one of her boyfriends because I am watching their children. When she comes home, we sleep together and she offers me comfort by cuddling with me. She is a great listener and helps me put my thoughts in order. With her help, I am overcoming something that is very difficult for me, jealousy.
One of the greatest rewards of being in this wonderful poly relationship is witnessing Fawn and Sean’s love for each other. It makes me so happy to watch them hug and kiss or hold hands. Their relationship is very important to me and if I can ever do anything to foster it, I would do so. Never would I want to get in the way of their happiness and love.
This past weekend we went to Philadelphia for a day trip. What made this trip special was that the kids got to go too. It was their first time to Philadelphia. Sean spent some of the day with the kids and they got to see the Liberty Bell and did some Ingressing. Fawn and I spent the time doing some shopping for fabric and toys. J We met up together for some famous Cheese Steaks and visited a medical museum. Unfortunately, the museum wasn’t as nice as I thought it would be. The best part of the trip for me though was during the car ride. At one point, as I was sitting in the seat behind the passenger, I was touching and caressing Sean while with my other hand I was doing so to Fawn. At the same time, Sean was holding Fawns hand. I truly felt at peace and fulfilled being a part of the two of them. I don’t know if they knew how much it meant to me but it did so much!
Later that night, we went up to bed fairly early. It had been such a long day and we were all tired. Fawn got into bed with Sean and I was sitting there and we all were watching a little television before calling it a night. Fawn reached over and started playing with Sean’s nipple. It became a game and I joined in, before long, our game evolved into something so much more. I don’t think that it could have been any better, watching Fawn and Sean make love and me being next in line. It felt so natural and normal, the three of us, like we were created for this. I played with Fawn and she played with me, Sean playing with both of us. All I can say is that I can’t wait until next time. I just hope it was as special to both of them as it was for me.
To me, poly is completeness, love, friendship, guidance, security and caring and I am thankful each day for the two people that give it to me. I can’t imagine that my life could be any fuller or better but I know that with Fawn and Sean in it, the sky is the limit!