Thank God for sunshine! Especially today! It’s streaming through my window at work right now.
I awoke sick on my stomach and weary, just bone weary. I need time off I truly do several days or weeks but it is not possible. I’m saving up my vacation time…for vacations I’ve planned and just because. We’re working overtime so I am trying to get in ten hour days.
I just wander in a fog. Mostly it is still the sorrow. I still cry every day. Not usually heaving sobs…just the silent kind where the tears run down your cheeks and you feel them turn from warm to cold.
My mind knows I will be alright. I have to be. I have others to think of and myself too of course. But my heart just aches so much.
I told my BFF yesterday that I am dreading Easter so much. Just the thought of a family holiday without her. Except for the three years I lived in South Carolina in my early 20’s…I’ve never spent an Easter without her. Really all I want to do…is go to bed and sleep and sleep and sleep.
Ah but I cannot. I have responsibilities! (Thank goodness)
So for now I will move along, start typing my true crime (sigh) and be very, very thankful for that beautiful morning sun.