Holding back an ocean of tears is yet the worst feeling I have right now. My dearest Sean is going to leave me because we were just “mere” friends. I thought we were in a relationship, something more than a friendship but I can’t remember when I started looking at, whatever “thing” I thought we had, that way. I’ve done everything I could, to make him happy, to keep him happy, even if it was jeopardizing my own happiness. What can I do though, my life has always been led in that way.
Having other people’s happiness placed in front of mine? It’s nothing new. It has always been like that. I guess that’s one of the reasons I could hold back these amount of tears. My heart has somewhat became cold because I know, I could not do anything more but to let him go.