It’s crazy…every day I miss her…I miss her so much. I have yet to go a day without shedding tears. The crying frustrates me. I mean it doesn’t change a damn thing it just blurs my vision and makes my nose stopped up and, and, and. Yesterday I spent a good part of the day with one of my oldest and dearest friends. She still has both her folks, both in their 90’s and of course both and ever concern. Anyhow, I ended up showing her mom’s birthday shot…a few weeks before she passed. And then I saw that beautiful pic of mom and dad so young and vibrant 23 and 22 respectful, showed her that and we both cried. When I went to bed last night I had a bought of that kind of almost hysterical crying (I don’t do that often) sobbing because I wanted to call her so badly and tell her all about my lovely weekend and I couldn’t. Every single day…this breaks my heart. I know it will get more bearable but when? I’m working and crying at the same time. I just want to crawl into a hot shower and sob my heart out then crawl into my bed and sleep it off. But not gonna happen. Well not gonna happen for another 11 to 12 hours anyhow.