Easter. I’m not happy about Easter time this year. It was a year ago at Easter time that my sister began her decline. She was gone from this life and onto the next about 8 weeks later.
Though I am not a devout Christian, I suppose it is fitting that she should pass from this life at this most holy time of year.
I find myself in the usual swirl of emotions that come as a holiday approaches. I’m sad, happy, anxious….all of it. Sad she is not with us. Happy she is watching over us. Anxious about seeing her husband and kids. I feel as though I cannot do anything right when it comes to them. I don’t still don’t know what to do or say. Everything I do or say feels inadequate. I just sent the oldest boy a text. He’s a freshman at college. Next boy is a high school sophomore, then 7th grade, then 5th grade. Their dad is away on business travel. He’ll be home Friday night. They have a good support system around them locally. I am so far away. Makes me sad. There is so much I would do for them if I were there.