Easter. I’m not happy about Easter time this year. It was a year ago at Easter time that my sister began her decline.  She was gone from this life and onto the next about 8 weeks later.

Though I am not a devout Christian, I suppose it is fitting that she should pass from this life at this most holy time of year.

I find myself in the usual swirl of emotions that come as a holiday approaches. I’m sad, happy, anxious….all of it. Sad she is not with us. Happy she is watching over us. Anxious about seeing her husband and kids. I feel as though I cannot do anything right when it comes to them. I don’t still don’t know what to do or say. Everything I do or say feels inadequate. I just sent the oldest boy a text. He’s a freshman at college. Next boy is a high school sophomore, then 7th grade, then 5th grade. Their dad is away on business travel. He’ll be home Friday night. They have a good support system around them locally. I am so far away. Makes me sad. There is so much I would do for them if I were there.

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  1. Oh honey I’m so sorry…I mean that’s about all I can say is I feel bad for you. Of course everything feels inadequate, but that doesn’t mean that it IS inadequate (hoping that made sense). Well as I think you told me the firsts are the worst and this is your first Easter. I’ll be thinking of you. You’re in my prayers. I wish I had that magic wand to make it all better, but unfortunately it doesn’t work like that. 🙁

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