The most depressing thing in the world to me is being able to see my goal, but not being able to quite reach it.
I have recently discovered one of my biggest goals in life. It is to be a Medical Laboratory Scientist. For those who don’t know what that is, it’s those people who work in the lab, behind the scenes in hospitals, etc, and run tests and help Dr’s diagnose what is wrong with a patient. I have such a strong passion for this field. I love it. When I study in my MLS classes, I feel like I’m finally doing what I was made for. Have you ever felt that way when studying something? You just know this program is for you?
I have the strongest desire to become accepted into the MLS program. I’m terrified I won’t be able to get in. I have no idea what I would do with myself if I didn’t. I want this so badly, and I’m willing to work hard enough to make it happen. I just don’t know where to start.
In lab the other day, there was a student who is almost finished with the program, and she already has a job with Primary Childrens Hospital. How amazing is that? I can see myself being in that position, just like her, but I feel so lost. I don’t know how to get to where she is today.
Do any of your goals just feel so out of reach? What do you do? I’d be so lost if I couldn’t make this dream come true. I’ve given up on so many other things, because I just didn’t have a lasting passion for them. But this is something I have to do.
Them mixture of ambition and hopelessness is a killer!