Feeling Blah

I am laying down in my bed just thinking about life. I don’t typically enjoy doing this because I always seem to get depressed. My life doesn’t suck by any means however. I have a somewhat supportive family, a very close boyfriend, a decent college education, and a job. What else can I ask for? *sigh*

Some days, like tonight, I wish nothing existed, especially me. I am not suicidal or anything. I would never take my own life because of some temporary thoughts and emotions. I just merely wish the burdens of life were included in a contract with God so we knew what we were getting into before he gave us life. I guess if that were true, not many people would sign the dotted line. The world would miss out on a lot of amazing people then. I guess it is just a matter of what we are willing to sacrifice for those seemingly minute happy moments in life. Hmmm.

Alright, enough deep thought for tonight. My head hurts.

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