i am writing this because i no longer have words to say out loud. every day is worse and worse. one day i think i have it all figured out and the next day everything falls apart within a matter of seconds. i know God is working in my life, but how can any good come out of losing all the ones i love because of a mistake my dad made? it just doesn’t make sense to me. i don’t really understand why God put me on this earth if all i am going to do is suffer, lose friends, and suffer some more.